so great of using my name...

got into trouble... using my name... what i have got to be inside... your mistakes, but i sacrifice... in the end no thank you... just tell me to leave this aside... fuck it... ain't not doing any kind guy anymore... enough is enough... you got your guy... if he got balls at first all this wouldn't happen... continue with what you think is good... wasting my time and credits for nothing... in the end only make people hates me more... stupid me sacrifice for nothing... i am done... finish doing my part... you got a new guy he should be the one helping you solve it not me... yeah maybe i am just busybody... well i am done... bye bye 

why

why am i still emo... it seems like i can't forget her... why am i still crying out in pain... how can i get over this... how why must relationship turns out to be so hurtful for me... its been so long she has found her love... i should be happy for her, yes i am happy for her... but why i am still feeling emotional... Are you there for me when i am in pain... are you??? do still love me??? why do you do this to me, why do you do this so easily...HOW... how to forget her how to let go... why do i still think of her every night... am i falling for someone hahaha... forget bout i said up there... just kidding i am not falling for someone i am no more emo... i am just as happy as i used to be... woohoo the feeling is great... yeah but if you ask me do i still love her... the answer is YES I STILL LOVE HER VERY MUCH... AND I MISSES HER ALOT... but well things didn't work out for some reasons... our life is all make up by GOD only he knows whats good and wads best for every single one of us... so every single dumb and dumerrer appreciate this life he gave you... stop falling in unnecessary traps get up on your feet and walk up straight... you can see the future as bright as me... ciaoz stupid

found something in life...

today is ok... had abit of fun... when to school sang some songs for worship... theres a song and i desperate for you, and i am lost without you... wow when i heard it... is almost like a time bom gonna explot any time soon hahaha... but never mind... time is passing by real fast... after that when for class break, and then when back in to the class to do some work not even a page done... i left school already... when for education fair at pan pacific... its ok not a big thing... lil tiny fair... all about australia... but theres a college not bad but is in singapore haiz... so never mind... will submit the application form real soon... at least can leave CA and step out of that cage... then we left after that a heavy pour of rain came so rapidly... damn it we just got to walk up and down from pan pac to persada to kotaraya back and forth thinking how to get to city square... haiz in the end i gave up walk up and down just run all the way there and get myself wet... ok finaly took a bus on the way back... we saw chuan lung he is driving alone with loli good good girl hahaha... so i called him and he stop at the next bus stop to pick us up how kind is he... hahahahe is really tired today drove so damn slow... hahaha then when to friends house lepak abit too boring d... go home sleep is still the best... thats all for today hahaha... all the best to me... june intake i am in for sure hahaha... perasan neh... nvm i am hontoni kawaii neh... life goes on be happy cheer up... its no big deal... do your best the best you can get... even if you fail never mind at least you tried and you did... one word to you girl... IF YOU ARE HAPPY I AM ALWAYS HAPPY FOR YOU... I AM ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU IF U NEED HELP OR IN PAIN... I BELIEVE I KNOW YOUR INNER SELF BETTER NOW... so bear this in mind you need help jacob jake jakey is always there always always there for you no matter what... OK... good luck... stepping forward now time flies again i remembered i just finish K2 now college GOD DAMN... this is too fast... soon i am gonna see somebody calling YO DADDY JAKE... wow or maybe yo mother fucking prince grandpa... hohoho... anyway just a word for those in relationship, never say break to your girlfriend... trust me even how hard and how unbearable it is try suck it up to your nerve, never ever say break, don't go through the lesson that i had paid... if you don't believe try break up once and u shall know... anyway time for kneeling down in prayer and repent for what i had did in the past and now... buai buai jake hontoni kawaii neh... take care... PEACE

IF ONLY GOD ALLOW US TO TURN BACK THE TIME?

if can i would like to go all the way back to 1995...where everything is unknown to me... 1997 whole family in usa peaceful... then 1998 primary 2... so that i could remember shannon... keep going study hard and till last year 2007 take good care of shannon never upset her again and again untill this year... and b4 never touch cigrete... no frends like in gang... but too late... so now i am gonna set the right path lay a good foundation all the way till i am old... thats all... ciaoz bye bye simple life...

fuck off

the world is changing just for looks and glamorous... 1 day i will show u all... bye 

never hide you feelings

i will dig it out before you start burying it... never hide your feelings... dont run away from reality. for theres so many things to be done or get done... every single breath you take in life, theres something to happen... get over it deal with it... theres nothing we cant do about... its up to us humans to face it to deal with problems... every matter theres something to patch it up... so no worries... its up to us to think whether or not we want to face it or just leave it aside... by hiding it things wont turn good... unless theres something called amnesia. its up to you whether you want to change yourself or continue to hide in there the lil cave... change the way you think things wont turn good change the way you think same thing will happen again... as for me i want to come out of that dark, humid, scary lil cave... i want to stand up... we must have more happenings than fighting quarelling and so on... i am changing... opportunity is yours, cause i am waiting here... but when time comes it strikes me... every single tiny bit will change... choices is made for you... when you think something is right for you hold it grab it tight... it is a good investment for good not for bad... so be it... thats all i am gonna say peace love...    ~~JAKE PEACE~~

aint i good enough

FIRST OF ALL... WANNA WISH SHANNON MUMSY HAPPY BIRTHDAY... HAHAHA BUT CAN'T SEE... WISH U BUSINESS SMOOTH SMOOTH BIG MONEY... AND SECONDLY ITS APRIL FOOL... and lastly nothing about me... went for basketball thats it bye bye... take care...